Remember how when we were little at the fair this, the strawberries the swings and the ferris wheel were like the coolest rides ever !?!?! Lol (:
Just done. With pretty much everything. I’m done feeling like this. Like, lonely, hated, unwanted. I feel like I’m just useless. A waste of space. Nothing-ness. I hate being this unhappy. I want to be happy. It’s always so hard for me to just be happy. I just hate everything. The world. My life….
Hiding
What people don’t understand is I’m only me when I’m with friends because I’m afraid of people judging me. I’m so sick of feeling like I’m not Good enough for the kids at school, for teachers or for the world. I stay quiet because I know there’s always someone who’s gonna say something that’s gonna bring me down. I don’t like hiding myself. I don’t sing loudly in choir because I’m afraid no one will like it. I don’t do my best at try outs anymore because Ik that no one cares how good I am if I don’t look right I’m not gonna make it. I don’t really dance at dances anymore because every time I do someones always there to say I suck or that I’m a whore.I don’t get up and do my hair and Make up in the morning because I know someone will always say it looks dumb or that I’m trying to be something I’m not or anything of the sort. I don’t show myself because I’m afraid. I hide because I don’t wanna be judged I put on an I don’t care attitude and cry myself to sleep at night. I’m so tiered of not feeling good enough and being put down and talked about. I am who I am why hide? Im just as good as everyone else, right?
Guys
How is that guys can break up with a girl and moves on. Shes fourced to pretend that she doesn’t miss him or still love him because if she shows how she really feels they say shes obsessed. And when she finds a new boyfriend (weeks later) shes a whore and a b!tch? Guys really should make up their mind. Girls (usually) dont say they love you unless they mean it. We ARE really confusing, hard to control and all that good stuff but we can’t help it! We want what we can’t have BUT so do guys! Guys do a lot of the same stuff that girls do! But the best part is, they complain about the stuff we do like talk about boring stuff … if they acctually listened once in a while they would see that what we talk about acctually isn’t boring or stupid it has meaning. Guy’s are the ones who are confusing! They love you but they don’t wanna talk. They like to talk to you but they never pick up the phone. They aren’t doing anything but they don’t wanna hang out or talk? I mean REALLY! Who else feels the same way? Or has seen this?
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